I think the striking thing about Kerouac is his willingness to be both vulnerable and honest, it is hard to tell, however, whether the majority of his honesty came from the drink. I did detect though, long periods when he 'got to the writing', there was much honesty in the writing. I think he was so damaged by critics, so many writers have that vulnerability that creates such angst in not being accepted. I have had my own detractors, (as most writers do) Ginsberg says towards the end of the book, "No one really understood what he was doing..." Alcoholics who cannot quit all face the same end--and it is tragic. Kerouac died the classic drunk's death, a hemorrhage of the esophagus. Blake said, "I was walking among the fires of hell, delighted with the enjoyments of genius which to angels look like torment and insanity." If ever there was a writer who saw so much of it, it had to be Kerouac. I used to say that "being an alcoholic is one of the hardest jobs there is..." Most would not see it as a job, but drunk or sober, it takes a daily maintenance of relentlessness, to keep either one alive. So, I am off to Border's today to get another book, but really, the book was as exhaustive of any biography I've ever read. The other biography I loved was 'Shakey', which was Neil Young's biography. Kerouac always kept a copy of Boswell's biography of 'Samuel Johnson' near him when he wrote.
This week is an important week in maintaining the discipline. There is an image to create, (Scott and I are doing a photo shoot tomorrow) I've decided on the image I want--I'll put on my cowboy duds and grab a suitcase, we'll got a back shot of me waiting on the corner of the old flea bag hotel, The San Moritz on Sunset Blvd. I appreciate the images I've received from several of you so far, and I may use something of them somewhere, we'll wait until we have the photos tomorrow. Then there is the press release to do, the media list to find, and an assorted array of other tasks that need to be done. I have a six hour rehearsal block Wednesday through Sunday, (when I signed the contract it was for both plays) so, I will definitely get plenty of rehearsal.
I hope your New Year is good one. I suppose with the new leader coming to us on the twentieth of this month, we are all hoping for changes.