Love is a rose.
Love is a rose but you better not pick it,
only grows when its on the vine,
hand full of thorns and you know you've missed it,
(Lose your love when you say the word mine.)
"…And if my Romeo should die,
Cut him into little stars,
And he shall make the face of
Heaven so fine,
That all the world
will fall in love with night;
And pay no attention to the garish sun."
"Greater love hath no man
Than that he lay down his
Life for his brethren."
St John the Revelator
"Love means never having to say you are sorry."
Eric Segal, 'Love Story'
"Love is patient, love is kind…"
Love, soft as an easy chair,
Love, fresh as the morning air,
Love, that is found by two,
I have found in you…
Barbra Streisand, From 'The Way We Were'
"Love can build a bridge,
between your heart and mine,
love can build a bridge,
don't you think its time…
don't you think its time?
"I loved you in the morning,
Your kisses deep and warm,
Your head upon the pillow
Like a sleepy golden storm."
"I've seen love go by my door,
never been so close before,
never seemed so easy or so slow,
I've been movin' in the dark to long,
When somethin's not right its wrong,
You're gonna make me lonesome
When you go…"
"You're cheating heart,
Will pine some day,
You'll crave the love,
You threw away,
There'll come a time,
When you'll be blue,
You're cheating heart,
Will tell on you…"
"Lovin' her was easier than anything I'll ever do again…"
"Pain don't hurt…"
Patrick Swayze, 'Roadhouse'
I threw the 'Roadhouse' quote in just because I love it and because I miss ole Patrick. Well, what can be said about love that hasn't been said before? I remember once, years ago, I was asked to sing the song, 'Tammy' at a wedding because the bride's name was Tammy. It was a beautiful wedding, except for that song, which got a butcherin' unlike any song that ever felt the cleaver before, at my hand. Still, no one really noticed but me.
I've come to the conclusion that I may not know as much about love as I thought I did.
Its easy to do, not knowing, I mean. I'm convinced that I have this little dog to teach me about unconditional love. I don't have children, so this dog will have to do as I make my way once again through love's maze.
As I reflect on love tonight, what I do remember is the vivid flush of love in its infancy. I remember my first love, Linda _______, whom I thought I would love forever. I was all of sixteen years old, and we were caught in that 'Romeo and Juliet' juggernaut, the one where her parents hated me with as much passion as Linda and I had for each other. There is nothing like the love that a teenager has, the world stops as it stops.
Two trains, one wreck…" excerpt from 'Blue Baby, A Memoir'
He had this truck with the devil’s pitchfork trick painted on the hood. He had this wild ass hair that went everyway. His clothes were torn and ripped. His arms were lean and strong from hanging on—and get this, rough out boots, Tony Llamas, that’s the only kind he would wear. Sometimes he wore hats, when he was drinking, which was most of the time. I fell in love with him at a desert party. We were both on acid. I loved it as much as he did.
You were supposed to slow me down.
Like I was cut out for that kind of work.
She was Czechoslovakian. Brown sparkling eyes and this crazy laugh that scared women and little children—and she had a body, a sensuous, deep, dark brown body that could make me cry when I was cornered. We recognized each other in the beginning from our clothes. Ripped it up, didn’t we baby?
Oh, we were ripped all right.
We were in love, so in love—baby—
Like two trains, one wreck…
Like fallen angels with waxed lips.
Like the moon exploding and bleeding…
Like an upside down candle…
Like those little hearts on Valentine's Day. Mine said, 'forget me not', yours said, 'bail me out'.
Her parents hated me, called me 'Satan'.
What would you have thought if you were my parents? You standin’ there at the door lookin’ like you had just walked off the Spahn Movie Ranch with Charles Manson.
I was harmless.
Baby, you were a minefield.
I couldn’t even pick her up at her house. I had to go to her friend’s house.
It was—all of it—a tragedy—
I loved you so much it hurt—all the time—
After I got pregnant, it hurt all the time—
Her mother found the papers—back then they called it an extraction—they flew you to California.
Our relationship was never the same after—
There was something missing—after that—
And it’s still missing—It will be missing forever—
I can still recognize me in you—
I know, why don’t you come and get yourself, that way I don’t have to carry you around—
I’m still attracted to you—
You’re still trying to kill yourself.
I’d give all that up if we could try it one more time.
You’d give all that up for me?
Heartaches be gone.
I’m going to have to pass on that one. Goodbye, again—
Never say goodbye, say so long—hasta la vista, Baby—you were my first love—
It's still hard to read these lines without a fresh rush of wild feelings. I was in so much trouble then, in every way. It could have been so much worse, I could have never found her, and then I probably wouldn't be here. So much to say here, so many years have passed and I still remember this flush of young love perfectly. Even then, while we were in love, it was the kind of love that hurt all the time, even on the good days. Of course, in 1973 the world was not exactly in a state of warm and fuzzy love, 1969 was over, baby, over.
I suppose if one's first love starts out as a minefield it stands to reason that it doesn't exactly create a good model for how relationships will evolve after that, I only know that tonight, at sixteen years old, I loved a young woman with a depth that seems almost impossible to ever achieve again. We loved as Rome was burning, as the war raged, as our hormones raged. We loved against her parents wishes, we loved deep into the night. Our love was really like a merry-go-round, with all the laughter, the bright colors, the dizziness, the golden ring, the horses blazing along—the sea on the horizon, the tragedy as the ride was over and so was childhood. We loved until there was nothing left but a burned up swath in the middle of the desert.