We have made a decision that Kurt will only direct the one play, 'Bohemian Cowboy', and so I've been on a director search for the other one. I know doing two plays seems like a lot to bite off, but with the second play comes the people energy that the whole project needs. I need the 'company' that a play like 'Blue Baby' can bring into the theatre. The woman, Marie, that I met last week as become invaluable, as she took my script and immediately send it out to some directors here in L.A.. She is also looking for space for me as well. I'm a little surprised at how willing she is to do these things for me, but I sense that she knows what its like to come to Los Angeles with the notion of doing a play. For several hours yesterday, I thought that I might cancel the 'Blue Baby' play, but Kent seems to want to bring energy to it, and I have it into the hands of another actor for his audition. For now, I'll keep both plays alive, and see where we are around Christmas time. Then I'll make the call. When I was in my thirties and running my own company, I tried to put up every project, even if it meant pushing the 'forces of nature'. Over the years, I've learned to have a little more wisdom when it comes to deciding whether something is possible or not. There is always a point in time when the decision 'clicks', and then the show moves forward no matter the obstacles. But to get to the 'clicking' place, takes some time. For now, it stays.
I'm having some trouble sleeping, which I know the exercise will also help, but some of it is just all of the adjustments--insomnia becomes an increasingly dangerous condition. I'm using all of my old tricks. My favorite trick is reciting Robert Frost poems in my head, and of course reading. The problem with reading becomes the excitement of the book. I can't read the Kerouac book at night anymore, as it keeps me racing. I have a book, 'Shakespeare's World' by Bill Bryson which is a more factual book, and less emotional. I've been trying to read that at night. I've also started memorizing the lines of the play, which is somehow very comforting. Its a mixed bag, this getting to sleep, I'll let you know how that goes.
I wanted to comment on 'the comments' I've been receiving on the journaling of this event. Just short of miraculous, these comments. The support I feel from readers is overwhelming, and I so appreciate the things you are saying to me, the experiences you are sharing with me. They are touching and so informative. I want you to know that I am listening to you all, and I will gradually be able to reciprocate the action. I have my hands so full of re-writing and doing all the pre-production for the play, (lots of e-mailing and sending documents), I find myself having to conserve energy. So, please be patient with me, and thanks again.
I went out yesterday and bought a printer, as the one Cheryl donated to me fell to me not removing the cartridge when I travelled, the ink destroyed it, (sorry Cheryl). One of the biggest issues with L.A. is just getting out in traffic and getting things done. Driving here takes up lots of energy and time. I am, however, getting used to it as the days move ahead, and thank god the price of gasoline has gone down. My printer is set up and working for manuscripts, and that feels good. Another part of this process includes sending Kurt (in New York) the changes I'm making on the script. Last night, I read (out loud) the entire manuscript so I could hear the changes and the rhythm. I am excited about this play! I'm learning to be much more patient as a writer, and rely and trust in the drama of the story. It feels good to be learning these things as I find more of the infrastructure of the play. Its going to work! Now, all I have to do is get my body, spirit and mind working to deliver the goods. I hope you are planning on coming...
Lastly, I want to tell you about Michael. Michael was and is a student of mine in the early days of Metro Arts. Michael was a truly wonderful spirit, but we both knew there was trouble ahead if he didn't get control of his demons. Recently, Michael has been sentenced to two years 'hard time' in the Arizona Prison system, and I know that even with all the bravado he can call upon, it has to be a frightening place he finds himself in. I have his address, but it has changed, I'll post his next address as it comes to me if you feel like writing this 24 year old man a letter. Michael played the great role of 'Dracula' in 'The Essential Dracula' that my brother Dan and I wrote several years ago. He was probably too dedicated to his role, but he played it masterfully. Michael did several plays for me at Metro Arts and after, and was always a great joy to be around. To compound the sorrow, his baby daughter, Olivia, was born several months ago. I told Michael then as I have told him recently, he possesses a rare talent, if he can find a way to keep his demons from devouring him. The prison sentence begins, a new and difficult learning curve. Pray for Michael.